Michael

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember whyI'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

This song broke my heart. If I even have one left. People who make selfish choices have no idea what it does to those who love them. Who do everything to try and rescue them - and all they want is to get high, or drunk or any other horrible reality blocker. How am I supposed to be okay when he isn't?