So tired of it all

I'm sure if you know me at all, you are very tired of hearing me say that I am tired. But oh, so fewer words were never spoken. Yes, physically I am more tired than I've been in awhile - coming mostly from the fact that I get up way before the sun even thinks about it. It's difficult going to bed in the dark, and waking up in the same. However; it is of my emotional state in which I am referring to. I almost can't keep my eyes open at the prospect of it all, at the prospect of my life. I am bone-deep weary, and there are certainly no blue skies on the horizon. Just the dark. You see? It's time to go to sleep.

Yes, I already know

I know I've been a big fan of lyrics lately to communicate how I feel instead of my own words. I will not apologize though, these magicians with words are much better than I could ever hope to be. And they definately accurately communicate my heart. Lets leave it at that.

I do know how this will end. Perhaps this is why it continually amazes me why I stay. Maybe that is changing...

Hold your grandmother's Bible to your breast.
Gonna put it to the test.
You want it to be blessed.
And in your heart,
You know it to be true,
You know what you gotta do.
They all depend on you.
And you already know.
Yeah, you already know how this will end.

There is no escape,
From the slave-catchers' songs.
For all of the loved ones gone.
Forever's not so long.
And in your soul,
They poked a million holes.
But you never lettem show.
C'mon it's time to go.

And
You
Already know.
Yeah, you already know
How this will end.

Now you've seen his face.
And you know that there's a place,
In the sun,
For all that you've done,
For you and your children.
No longer shall you need.
You always wanted to believe,
Just ask and you'll receive,
Beyond your wildest dreams.

And
You
Already know.
Yeah, you already know
How this will end.

You already know (You already know)
You already know (you already know)
You already know love will end.

New York

Well, I wanted to post a few pics from my newest adventure to NY. Mitch, Cj and I hit up Buffalo, Syracuse and, of course, NYC. It rained nearly the whole time but we had a grand adventure anyway. Enjoy!!!

The fear you won't fall...

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
Behind me air's getting thin but I'm trying
I'm breathing in
Come find me
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
Can't get my mind off of you
And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you