11:11pm

Make a wish...oh the possibilities.

Some crazy times are coming. I can feel it. Not storms or rainbows - but perhaps lightening and wind. Power. Endless possibilites. Outrageous opportunities. My fears are being chased by peace and I am ready to begin. Now begins the waiting...you'll know when I know.

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

Peace, love and the most beautiful of dreams. I hope all of your wishes come true too.

Got it

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Letting go...

"I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams."
-Yeats

Top ten things to do on a rainy Tuesday...

1. Go back home and take a nap after you've already been at work.
2. Take really ridiculous quizzes to find out really ridiculous things.
3. Paint.
4. Put on my new 'sugar and spice' lotion every hour or so.
5. Let Mitch go get lunch so I can stay warm and toasty.
6. Eat Taco Bell.
7. Make plans for Friday night. Make menu too.
8. Take a deep breath every twenty minutes or so to keep up the anticipation of tonight.
9. Confirm our Chicago trip!
   
10. Work a little.

For some reason I am in very mixed spirits today. Content on one hand to just be chillin in the office and working quietly. Excited about dinner tonight and what that conversation holds. A little down about how little affect working out has actually had on me. Kind of hopeful about what God is doing in my life. I did find out that I was 66% evil today though. Always an interesting thing to find out.

Saw Borat last night. Not sure I want to claim that, but not sure I don't either. Mitch and Cj sure thought it was funny. It was horribly offensive, horribly icky, yet you couldn't help but laugh. A dangerous combination for sure.

So, I'm in the midst of purging my house at the moment. Getting rid of ALL my crap! So past time to do it, and I am surprisingly looking forward to my yard sale in the spring. Hopefully that will help fund my new life.

Okay, well my lunch shall be arriving soon so I must say adios. Chickenwrap crunch surpremes to you all!

Love and miss you.